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raindropped[ Not being taken seriously when he's angry certainly makes it easy to stay angry, but not terribly enjoyable.
Not that being angry at Yuki is enjoyable at any point in time.
Ame hasn't minded Yuki's attempts to branch out on his own. In a way he's even approved of them; he knows it's important for Yuki to have his own sense of self. And so the differences he's enacted - choosing literature club over soccer, the pierced ear, the different circle of friends, even the pink hair - have all been at least tolerated. The boyfriends, on the other hand, are a different matter. Ame's known about them for a while, sure, and it isn't like he hasn't had a boyfriend himself for a few times.
The thing is, though, that Ame has only known about a boyfriend and has been assuming they're all the same one. Maybe it's the the (hidden, thankfully) embarrassment that he was wrong that's making him so angry, but by the time they're home and Yuki finally demands to know why, Ame realizes he knows the real reason. In the immediate wake of the question Ame is frozen with uncertainty, trying and failing to convince himself that jealousy isn't the emotion he's feeling. It's not something he can admit to, not something he wants made obvious, and he almost tricks himself into thinking that lying would be the better option.
But then he thinks about the boyfriends, about the hickeys, about the thought of someone else with their hands all over Yuki... and then, before he really knows it, he's shoved Yuki back up against the front door and crushed their lips together, fury and jealously warring inside him and neither quite coming out on top. ]
Not that being angry at Yuki is enjoyable at any point in time.
Ame hasn't minded Yuki's attempts to branch out on his own. In a way he's even approved of them; he knows it's important for Yuki to have his own sense of self. And so the differences he's enacted - choosing literature club over soccer, the pierced ear, the different circle of friends, even the pink hair - have all been at least tolerated. The boyfriends, on the other hand, are a different matter. Ame's known about them for a while, sure, and it isn't like he hasn't had a boyfriend himself for a few times.
The thing is, though, that Ame has only known about a boyfriend and has been assuming they're all the same one. Maybe it's the the (hidden, thankfully) embarrassment that he was wrong that's making him so angry, but by the time they're home and Yuki finally demands to know why, Ame realizes he knows the real reason. In the immediate wake of the question Ame is frozen with uncertainty, trying and failing to convince himself that jealousy isn't the emotion he's feeling. It's not something he can admit to, not something he wants made obvious, and he almost tricks himself into thinking that lying would be the better option.
But then he thinks about the boyfriends, about the hickeys, about the thought of someone else with their hands all over Yuki... and then, before he really knows it, he's shoved Yuki back up against the front door and crushed their lips together, fury and jealously warring inside him and neither quite coming out on top. ]
